Out of the closet, indeed.

hahahahahahahahahaHAha!!!!

I cannot. stop. laughing.

Lance Bass is gay. He's gay!!! Oh my gosh, why didn't I see this coming??? hahahahaha!!!!

I'm not making fun of it by any means (cause I love gay boys!), but this is hilarious to me!! Ohhhhhhhhh, this was the highlight of my day.

July 25th must die.

Yesterday was such a bad day...I wanted to scream. Well I didn't scream, but I did cry out of frustration. It all had to do with my tuition for school, and because of a mistake I made, it wasn't paid for...and if it wasn't paid for, I couldn't register...and school is important to me. No school=Ashley is sad.

But it's ok. It's been figured out. I am now registered and happy.

Take a deeeeeeeeeeep breath...

And here are the classes I'm taking, in case you're interested:

1. Communications 310W (Gathering and Reporting Information): Writing, basically. And gathering info I suppose? What are all my major classes anyway...writing!! All these fancy names...why don't you just get down to the point?
2. History 445 (California History): is it necessary to explain this one? It counts as a requiremtnt for upperdivision...and why not learn about the greatest (craziest) state?
3. Italian 201 (Reading and Speaking Italian): hahaha...I've gone a semester without Italian and have nearly forgotten the lot of it. Ahhhh! That should be interesting...
4. Political Science 301 A (History of Western Political Thought): I already took 301 B with the same professor and loved it...and I loved him. Cause he's insanely funny. And I ♥ poli sci! I should get a shirt made or something.

I always get excited for the first week of classes. And I'm only taking four. Deciding to spread out my schedule over two years instead of one was a goooooooooood plan.

Less classes=less stress=Ashley is happy.

Yay for being happy!

Waiting on the World to Change

All this fighting in the middle east makes me nervous.

Not just because it's sad for humankind...

But also cause my family is extremely close to this!!! Turkey is close to all those wars, actually, and I hate that.

Just look at this map...look at it!

It borders Iran, Iraq, Syria...and is close to Israel and Lebanon. Geeeeeeeeez!!! Can it be in a worse spot? Seriously now.

It's just unnerving for me...cause I love my family in Turkey. And Turkey is a gorgeous place with nice people, I wouldn't want to see anything happen to it.

Soooooo yeah, Turkey was ruthless back in the day with the Ottoman Empire...I know. But it's a fabulous place now. It just has some bad luck with neighbors...

And so I say: Ben Turkiye cok seviyorum.

Which means: I love Turkey very much.

Hot in Herrrrrrre

I'm gonna go see Sweater Guy today. Well, if he's there, that is...he doesn't have a phone, so it's not like I can actually contact him.

But I haven't seen him in two weeks. And I miss him a little. But I'm not upset over it or anything. It's like I'm going to go see an old friend...except he's more like a recent friend. ha.

Did you know? It reached 103 degrees in San Diego yesterday. That's sacreligious! Cause perfect weather is totally San Diego's religion.

I think I may have to go to the beach today. I don't really have a choice. The ocean shall be my lover today. And what a gorgeous lover it is.

Arrrrrrrrrr! We be Pirate Wenches!!!

I couldn't even begin to tell you of the adventures that went on the night this picture was taken.

All I can tell you is that me and the girls are pretty much as cool as pirates. Though not as smelly.

Yay for taking pictures in random boats!! (I'm in the middle in case you couldn't find me).

Why is college so INSANE?

It's like looking into a mirror.

I started reading the book Pledged and I can't put it down.

Ahhhhh!!! This book has sucked me in. Damn you vacuum book! hahahaha....yeah.

Probably because it's about my life...it's about sororities, and that's crazy.

Sometimes, I still can't believe I'm in a freakin' sorority. I mean, I'm in a sorority. That is freakin' hilarious. It really is. And I'm realizing that more as I read this book. Ohhhhh, my life is surreal at times.

And I still get the million dollar question. STILL. "Sooo, do you girls really have naked pillow fights?"

Keeping it all in order.

I bought a new planner today. And highlighters. And pens. Having something new to write in (with new colors to write with) strangley makes me immensely happy.

I'm sort of weird.

To change subjects, but keep with the theme of order....there's a lot going on with my sorority right now. An advisor to my sorority said this wise quote about it "Running a sorority is like running a business, and is going to teach you more about life than your classes will."

I think this quote could go for any organization.

And....she was right. This sorority knows how to kill me sometimes...KILL ME. Cause it's hard work. It's kind of like being stabbed in the chest repeatedly. But it's worth it. I've learned that it is something I truly love and have passion for. So I stay, and trudge on through...it gives me a great satisfaction.

And why would I stay if there wasn't a challenge present?

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Well, there's nothing else to really write about here except for my WANT and NEED for school to begin. But that will come soon enough, so let's not rush life.

You're tearing me apart!!!

I hate people who are INCOMPETENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate people that are CONDESCENDING!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate people that think it is alright to belittle me!!!

I'm talking about a new manager at my work...she is DRIVING me up the wall. And I want to throw merchandise at her head. GEEEEEZ woman! Just get over yourself.

*Ahem* I think a new job is in order. As much as I love some people at my work, a new job needs to happen soon. Otherwise I will be stabbing someone.

Ok. I feel slightly better now. Oh and the title is an allusion to James Dean. Cause the thought of him makes me happier, at least.

I see a fire burning in their souls.

Whoooooooooaaaaaaa. What is going on in the Middle East? Israel, Lebanon, Syria...WHAT is going on?

This scares me. And depresses me a little.

The world is falling apart before our eyes. And it brings a deep sadness to my heart.

On School, On Writing, On Life

I think my love affair with coffee is getting kind of dangerous. As well as my love affair with purple. But that is besides the point.

I'm sitting here, thinking about what's about to elapse in the next month, and I realize that school is included in that. And I'm excited. And I'm excited that I'm excited. I actually really love shopping for school supplies...pens, notebooks, post-its...and they're all color coordinated!!!

And you know what I'm doing right now? I'm practicing. Journalism classes will be hitting me soon (in where they ask you to write an article EVERYDAY). And so I'm trying to write here almost everyday. Cause I've been told numerous times in numerous classes that writing everyday is an important/beneficial exercise. Not to mention it makes my soul happy.

Although...I'm already sliiiiiightly stressed. See, I'm in charge of day a rush, and I'm planning EVERYTHING for that day. I realized, in taking this position, that I'm actually not a person who likes to party plan. I like decorating. But party planning gives me a headache!! It's all about the art of an occasion...not the business.

But it will be alright. I have tons of help.

Oh, and Jaclyn and I are probably gonna try to hit up Disneyland before school starts (Let's plan it Jack!!!). Cause that's always a magical, wonderful trip.

Alright...work starts soon. Gotta get to it, and make that money now, so I don't have to work too much during the school year.

Mint-Chocolate Smile

I think that my aunt actually may be alright. But we'll see. Surgery is never a good thing. But at least it's not as serious as I thought.

And right now I'm kinda delighted by the mint chocolate chip ice cream I'm eating (a whole half-carton's worth).

Besides being delighted by the fact that my aunt isn't in any serious condition.

We forget, all too often, that life is fragile. Soooo fragile that it is utterly scary.

Auntie Diane ♥

I woke up this morning at 6am with no troubles. That's usually a big problem for me.

I found out last night that my aunt is in the hospital right now and is going to have emergency surgery. I don't know what for yet, seeing as my mom left me a message. And so I'm left a little in the dark.

And what can you do? My aunt Diane is a strong, hilarious, personable woman. And all I can do is hope and pray that she'll be alright.

Let me give you a background story on this aunt of mine. One time, she told me, when she used to be married, she got in an argument with her husband. This elevated into him almost hitting her.

After a bit of a cool-down, while he was taking a shower, my aunt Diane grabbed a radio, stormed up the stairs, broke down the door and slid open the shower curtain (all with a firey rage). She then held the radio up (over the shower, right?) and said "If you ever attempt to hit me again, I swear I will kick your ass!"

I'm pretty sure he didn't mess with her again.

My prayers are with my aunt.

ITALY WON!!!!

I'm very happy about this. If france would have won, I would have just died.

I love those freakin' italians.

Viva Italia!!

With Open Arms

Ahhhh, I took a fabulous nap today. I don't take naps often, so they are special jewels when they come along.

Sadly, Jaclyn and I cannot go to Colorado due to extreme circumstances...sort of a bummer, but I will live. Jack and I will just have to take a raincheck. Someday, we will travel to great places... once we are makin' the big bucks, hear that Jack?

Anyway, to change topics, I realized that school is approaching much sooner than I realized. It scared me initially, cause I'm really enjoying this summer. Like, I'm REALLY enjoying how deliciously lazy this summer has been. But I'm also ready in a way. Ready to learn again and get back into the groove. There's only so much vegging you can do before you feel completely useless. I'm ready to gain some real knowledge again. One more month of laziness will be perfect before the work begins.

And because I feel like bringing it up...let me tell you what I think about Sweater Guy. I like him still. I still have feelings. I still hang out with him. But you know what's good? I don't freak out anymore if he doesn't call me. I don't start pulling out my hair if I don't see him for awhile.

Cause I realized--yay me--that a friendship needs to be built between us. What's the point of jumping into a relationship with someone you don't know? There's not a point.

And once we have a good friendship, and there's still something there, then we can act on it. I'm not in a hurry anymore. Why stress over something I can't control?

I know, I'm smart.

He's still incredibly beautiful. I'll give him that.

Red, White and Watermelon.

My apartment is lonely right now...I hate that!!! I hate being the only one home. It kills me sometimes. I guess I just really like being around people. Cool people, that is.

Went to the beach on the 4th of July. It was WAY crowded. Apprently some 50,000 freakin' people visited San Diego just to go to our beaches. Dude. Go get your own beach and leave mine alone.

hahaha. That's the united, patriotic spirit to have, huh?

I guess I'm slightly grumpy because I am sunburnt. And I got hit on repeatedly by guys yesterday (like every girl in a bikini). How do you tell a guy nicely that you don't want to give him your phone number? I just can't say no sometimes.

Funny short story: I was wearing this pink/green sun dress at the end of the night and one guy (ahem, one drunk guy) came up to me, gave me a big hug, smiled and said "you look like a big watermelon!"

hahahahahaHAha. That made me laugh. He thought it was hilarious, too, and joined me. Hahaha!

I guess, in reflection, I can say that America is a very, uh, special country. We've got some real idiots, including myself. But we are lovable idiots. Indeed.

Movies and Barbequed Ribs make me HAPPY.

I saw Superman again last night....hahaha HA ha...I'm CRAZY. But there are very few movies I'll see twice (in a row). It's just a good movie. And I didn't just see it for hottie-hot-Superman (that is his OFFICIAL name, you know), but I also saw it for Kevin Spacey, cause Mr. Spacey plays deliciously psychotic characters in his movies and I LOVE IT!!!

On the similar note of movies, there is one movie that you should NEVER see. Never. That movie is Poseidon. Think of the most unnecessary action flick ever made, and you'll get that stupid movie. I fell asleep during it! And I never fall asleep during movies.

As you can see, I'm having an incredibly lazy summer. If I have the time to see a movie twice, then I have a lot of free time. But it's oh-so-nice.

And now I'm gearing up for the 4th! Yay! Let's celebrate our Independence even though our country is falling apart and dying the way every great (and arrogant) civilization has!

Sorry, that was a bit morbid. But very, very, VERY true. Anyway, hope you have a great 4th of July! hahaha...can I even say that now? Just think of Barbeque...mmmmm...barbeque. It makes it ALL better, huh?