ohhhhhh mondays...

what can I say about mondays besides that they kill me sometimes?

I'm listening to "No Rain" by Blind Melon right now. Most people can agree that it is in fact a fabulous song.

And I don't understand why I sleep all day
and I start to complain that there's no rain
and all I can do is read a book to stay awake
and it rips my life away
but its a great escape

Sometimes I just want to escape...into the sunset, into the rain...into a place that's a colorful solace.

On a happier-non-complaining note, it's my birthday this saturday and I will be 22. I'm going to a 50's-ish diner and requiring that all the girls going with me will have to wear dresses. Just because. :)

This just tickles me pink.

Natasha Bedingfield has a new song called "I Wanna Have Your Babies."

It says, and I quote, "I wanna have your babies/get serious like crazy/I wanna have your babies/I see them springing up like daisies..."

hahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!

Oh my gosh. That is sooooooooo great. And crazy. But alas, girls do think like this. At least, I have...haha, ohhhhhh...maybe I'm crazy?

hahahaha, oh this gave me a great laugh today...

It's like poetry.

Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul...

WHAT a great line. seriously now.

Rain down, rain down...on me.

Rain is splendid...it's pouring in san diego. Pouring. You don't get it...it never pours in san diego, it sprinkles...and we call that rain. My roomate went on campus today and came back to say that NO ONE is on campus right now. That's cause Californians think they'll melt in the rain.

Well, I adore it, personally. I welcome the rain to come down from the sky and wash away my worries into the drain. I love the whole renewal process of the rain.

By the way, I have some random news about Sweater Guy that made me feel good about the whole situation...

So many of you know that I had a huge thing for Sweater Guy a LONG time ago, right? And I was always confused as to why nothing happened. So, I went out with one of his good friends yesterday, and this is how the convo went:

Sweater Guy's Friend (SWF): Did you ever like Carlos?

Me: Yeah...a long time ago...why?

SWF: Well. Awhile ago Carlos talked about you and said you had a little thing going on. But he couldn't start anything then cause he was taking a vow of complete celibacy then and that included not dating girls...at all (Sweater Guy is really religious, by the way).

Me: Ohhhh, things make sense now.

SWF: But yeah, he told me that he always regretted never dating you. So yeah, I just had to tell you.

Now...I don't like Sweater Guy in that way anymore...but it's good to know why I was so confused over everything. It's kind to cool to know, right?

So, that's all the news I have today. I'm going to attempt to study for a test that I have...today. Shoot! I need to get on that. ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, procrastination!

P.S. If you don't like Robin Thicke's "Lost Without You" then you're just not sexy.

Whoa!

I just realized...2 years ago today I started this blog...

2 years? Are you serious! That is SO crazy, gurrrrrrrrrrl.

Happy Anniversary to me! yay!

Puzzle Pieces

I'm getting bored with the same ol' same ol'...I need to change jobs or something before I go insane.

It's weird--I'm a person that craves change while being afraid of it at the same time. But maybe that is what's exciting about it...fear, the unknown, etc.

This week has tired me out. And honestly, I've been a bit down for various reasons. It's these times that you pick yourself up off the ground, splash some water on your face and walk outside into the sunshine (or rain, cause that makes me happy too).

This is an odd time of my life. I think I may look back at it in 5 or 10 years and laugh...but for now I'll get through it the best I can.

I realize I'm being completley ambigous here...but it's kind of fun to remain a mystery. Thus, I will return to my shadows with my box full of secrets.

Kiss Me!!!

It's Valentine's Day...yay! Usually single people aren't fond of Valentine's Day. But I am. My friend is making me dinner today. Yummy in my tummy, that's all I have to say.

So yesterday...get this. I'm supposed to have a test, right? I study, get to class like everyone else. 5 minutes go by, 10 mintues...15 minutes...20 minutes. The professor doesn't show up for the test. WHEN does that EVER happen??? It was crazy!!

So yeah, it's sunny outside today in SD. I'm happy today. I'd like to keep that way the whoooooole day, thankyouverymuch.

We're soooooooo in denial.

Today the sky is doing this half storm cloud/half sunny skies thing. It's a cool work of natural art.

I have to write a paper today about whether the good ol' U.S. of A is a death-denying culture. Welllllllllll, yeahhhhhhh, I'd say we probably are.

One of my friends called the other day to say that her mom went for a check-up and has tumors all over body and they can't operate. I realize, that although the news of my dad was devastating to me, I'm really lucky that I didn't get news like that.

So yeah, I'd say that we definitely are a death-denying culture...cause when death enters our lives, we go into shock. At least I did. And now it seems to surround me. But it surrounds all of us, doesn't it? It's inevitable.

And yet, we deny it.

Can you count how many times I used the word denial (or a variation of it) in this post? haha...off to write my paper now.

Side note: I have that old song "Virtual Insanity" in my head right now. That's a good freaking song, I must say.

Totally Twisted...

Today is about Anna Nicole Smith everything, isn't it? Yeah, it was shocking...but are we really that surprised? I guess the Marilyn Monroe worshiper died eerily similar to her idol.

Hmmm...I sounded incredibly insensitive for a second. I guess I've been in a bad mood today. It's just been.........what's the phrase? Oh yeah...one of those...days.

I think I use the ellipsis too much when I write, but I suppose I use it a lot when I speak as well.

I have a test and a paper due next week. Uh-oh. School has officially began. No more dilly-dallying allowed.

I watched an old video of the *Nsync No Strings Attatched concert today. My roomate and I are total dorks.

Sooooooo, as can see this entire post is random and highly unfocused, but it's my mood today. What'cha gon' do? So I'll end it. Peace out...here's to a better tomorrow! For me at least...

There's a time to let go...

I can't really explain the story behind what I'm about to say...so it's gonna come out sounding ambiguous...

But, it's time to let go of jealousy in my life, that is, the fact that I've been jealous.

Jealousy weighs you down, tires you, rips your heart to shreds.

I've experienced sooooooooo much in the past 5 months, it's crazy. Talk about having life experience...suga! I have it now!

But in one simple sentence, it's just time to letttttt gooooo.... (whew...breathe)