8.30.2008

Ahem

Scratch that last post. I need to chill. Today was already a better day. However, mini-emotional breakdowns are allowed sometimes.

The end.

Gotta Keep On...

I haven't had much time for the internet this week. I've been preoccupied with a range of emotions: stress, relief, happiness, sadness...mostly stress. Do I sound like a complete basket case right now?

Really I wish I could let stress slide off my shoulders, but I've never been that type of person. However, at least I have hope. Being hopeful (despite the stress) keeps me sane in this life.

Oh, I'm not complaining about anything horrible this week. Just the same old...I feel stuck in one place right now, my life is not moving foward and it's frustrating. After being in school, one gets used to always working to a certain goal, always moving...everyday is a step closer to the next step. Right now, I'm standing still.

I'm at a place where I'm asking...WHAT'S NEXT? And by now, I'd like to know the answer.

8.25.2008

Sudafed was my best friend this weekend.

I went to my friend's wedding this week. It was mostly nice, but a little too contrived for my taste. So much so that the bride almost fainted and looked stressed most of the time (because of the rigorous schedule and 3 HOURS it took to take pictures after the ceremony).

I don't want my wedding to be yet another thing that has to be done a "certain way." People get too caught up in being just like everyone else. Sometimes it's too much.

Oh, and I almost forgot to mention...I definitely got hit on at the wedding by this guy named Harlie. Well, maybe not hit on, but he was definitely trying to get my attention (and told everyone he thought I was cute, so they then tried to set me up with him).

As stated earlier, I do not like contrived things, so I wasn't having it. He asked for my number by the end of the night, and I told him I don't like talking on the phone (which is true), but he could be my friend on facebook (good ol' internet).

Of course, I checked my inbox today and guess who I have a friend request from? Yep, the guy works fast.

Anyway, to change subjects, for the last 4 days I've been deathly ill. And during the summer? That never happens. I relaized it's because I've been spending too much time indoors applying for jobs and not getting enough fresh air. I've come to the conclusion that I'm going to start walking my applications to businesses so:
  1. I get my fresh summer air
  2. I'm still applying
  3. Businesses get to see me, which can't hurt, right?
  4. Why not put a little exercise in the mix?

All of this = Ashley will no longer be sick. Yay!

8.21.2008

My Favorite Project

Weirdly enough, I've never written about Project Runway on my blog before, but I have been a huge fan since the beginning.

I'm not one to follow too much T.V.; if I'm bored enough and something is on, I may watch it. However, Project Runway is one show I watch religiously.

I don't know what it is! I'm just fascinated by how each designer puts together their garment in the short alloted time. I love the intense background music. Heidi is sassy. Tim is even sassier. It's just magic. This may be my favorite show ever.

And this season, there are quite a few talented designers (where as last season, Christian was the only "fierce" designer). So that makes things even more exciting for me.

Alright, alright. I'll stop with all the praising. It's just that Project Runway gives me a little glimmer of hope that T.V. can be decent. Cause there's A LOT of crap on television right now. Including the news, which I won't get into...cause that's a whole other post.

8.19.2008

Not So Usual

So I've been posting A LOT. Like this is the amount I used to post when I FIRST got my blog. Clearly, I need a job.

Anyway...this post is official business.

I am sooooo glad Raindog told me to check out The Usual Suspects. Which I did. And OH MY GOD what an amazing movie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I mean 1. It has Kevin Spacey. (Refer to a couple posts down). And 2. it was just f'in rad!

Ok, it's a little late and I must go off to bed. But I had to post about one of my new favorite movies. Thanks raindog!

8.17.2008

On Courtrooms and Kevin Spacey

I love love love court room movies. Is anyone else a sucker for those?

I don't know what it is? Maybe it's the utopian inside of me that relishes when justice prevails. Also, I just find court rooms really freakin' interesting. I didn't mind when I had jury duty; it was kinda cool to see how it all worked and to actually decide on people's lives.

Anyway, I bought A Time To Kill for $5 the other day. I ♥ that movie. And why is Kevin Spacey such a genius actor?! Is it weird to have a slight crush on Mr. Spacey because I love every role he ever did?

Yeah, most likely. One, because he plays some psychos. Two, because in my last post I just ranted about never being attracted to 50-year-olds.

Anyway, it's not so much a weird crush as it is an amazing respect for a man who is one of the BEST ACTORS EVER.

Ok, done with my random Kevin Spacey post. Where did that even come from?

Honorary 'Mean Girl'

Soooo, proof that there is extraterrestrial life out there? Michael Phelps. Need I explain more?

But to the point of my post...

I have a short story about today. I went to traffic school (for 8 freakin hours...geeeez) for the ticket I got about 2 months ago, here is the conversation I had with the instructor:

Instructor: Say your name and why you got your ticket.

Me: Ashley. And I may have done a "california roll" through a stop sign.

Instructor: Did you try to cry to get let off of the ticket?

Me: Uh, no.

Instructor: Did you flirt with the cop?

Me: Ew. The cop was around 50 and that is just wrong.

Instructor (offended because he's in his fifties): Ohhhhh, is that too old for you?!? Well you're just a mean girl!

So for the duration of the class, everyone reveled in the splendor of calling me "mean girl." WHY is it that teachers love picking on me? I've gotten this all my life.

haha. Don't answer that, actually. I know I'm easy, even fun, to pick on. I've been told several times.

So yeah, maybe I can be part of the plastics now.

8.13.2008

Tick Tock Tick Tock

There's a lot more waiting in job searching than I realized there would be.

I applied for a job about 10 to 12 days ago, and didn't hear anything from them (even with the knowledge that this company is getting ready to hire about 500 employees at a time). So I called up the HR department to see what was up. The lady pulled up my application on the computer and said, "Well, they haven't even viewed your application yet. We've had over a 1,000 applicants."

At least they hadn't rejected me yet!

But what does a girl do with all this idle time? Well, for one, I've been cleaning a lot. Going to the beach a lot. Trying not to spend ANY money if I can help it.

If this goes on for too long I am very slowly going to lose my mind.

So, today is going to be another beach day. ALL DAY LONG. Sun-bathing with my friend Sonja (an exchange student from Norway) then a bonfire with a small group.

Maybe the beach is the only thing keeping me sane?

I'll walk along the damp sand that hugs the water's edge and beg the tide to take my stress and worries with it to the end of the world. Better yet, to the bottom of the sea, where all the bottom-feeders can have at it :)

8.11.2008

Two Thumbs Up

I watched two movies yesterday on T.V. (since I was hungover a little from that Bachlorette party, all I could do was sit around--must begin to moderate my drinking on special occasions. Bicardi 151 is trouble).

Anyway, the first movie was Woman on Top. I realize that sounds like the title of a porno (ewww, Ashley does not watch those); but, it was a beautiful love story about the loss and regaining of passion, and also about food. You can't go wrong with food. It starred Penelope Cruz (a long time ago) and some really hot Brazilian guy named Murilo BenĂ­cio.

The movie reminded me a little bit of Chocolat, but with cheesier graphics, haha. Still, the message was endearing and hot latin guy sings with this amazing, sensual voice. Don't know if that's his real voice, but somehow I don't care.

The second movie I watched yesterday was Matchstick Men. I'm sure most of you have seen this movie, but this was the first time I've seen it.

It totally fooled me! The ending came as a shock, and usually I can figure out movies.

I love the relationship between Nicholas Cage and the Alison Lohman (well, it's hard not to like it). It also helps that I grew up a daddy's girl. And I think Nicholas Cage is a great actor (I'm realizing that I like narotic actors, like Cage and John Cusack).

This movie is just plain adorable, with the outer appearance of seeming slick and guy-friendly. haha.

So, two good movies in one day. I love it! If you haven't seen them, check it out!

8.08.2008

Seven things Ashley did this week.

  1. Went to the beach. A smashing time.
  2. Got my friend an edible bra (with the same candy used for candy necklaces). Oh yeah...forgot to say why. haha. It's for her BACHLORETTE PARTY. You perverts.
  3. Applied to jobs. And then some more. And then some more.
  4. Saw Phantom of the Opera last night....AMAZING! My friend Greg called me to tell me had an extra ticket because of someone being too sick to go. I snatched that up quickly. It was beautiful! And the phantom had a drop-dead gorgeous voice. My only criticism is that the chandelier-dropping scene could have been more dramatic.
  5. Drove all over San Diego, and wasted some gas. But I suppose it was worth it for all that I did.
  6. Watched High School Musical 2. It was to feed my old roommate Ali's addiction to Zac Efron. It wasn't for me...I SWEAR.
  7. But watching Definitely, Maybe was for me...cause Ryan Reynolds is just. plain. hott. Yep, with two t's.
So yeah, tomorrow I'm off to Orange County for that bachlorette party. There may some worthy pictures from that outing...just don't know if I'll share them :)

8.06.2008

Beijing and Other Things

Dude, what's up with Beijing? I'm sure you've all seen these pictures before...but pollution much?

That's. just. nasty.

Anyway, to update you...I talked to J a couple nights ago online. Now, I've talked to him a few times before, and everytime he talks about how he's depressed...yada yada yada. (Because his enagagement was called off in March).

So when I tried to give him advice on how to get better and how I got better after he hurt me (and you all know that he HURT me very badly), he basically rejected it.

He said something to the effect of, "This may sound cruel but my situation is worse than yours was."

Can you say jerk? How about asshole? Yes, that works better.

The reason I talked to him a few times since our friendship/relationship dissolved was because I still cared about his well-being. But after this most recent conversation, I realize just how selfish he is. He truly thinks about himself and himself alone. Why should I bother to help? On top of that, I can't help. Maybe once he's lost all of his friends (and he's lost most of them already) he'll realize what a conceited prick he's been.

So I'll wish him a Goodluck and Goodbye and be on my way (yeah, he's in the top five, of course). Talking to him at all won't help him and won't help me.

I think the saying may be true...that past lovers can never remain friends. At least in this situation it is.

8.04.2008

Damn, it feels good to be a gangsta!

I'm in a great mood today.

I shouldn't worry too much about jobs. It'll come to me when the time is right; God has got my back, yo.

I truly understand that saying now, the one about having the world at your fingertips.

I'm free. Free to choose what path to take, what trail to wander down. Free to turn around if I so choose. How gangsta is that? Pretty. Damn. Gangsta.

It's as if I have wings right now. Ah, to be free, young and eager to change the world.

8.03.2008

Just Keep Swimming

Does anyone ever get tired of having a cell phone on you at all times? Often, I leave my cell phone in the other room, out of sight and away from my ears. Then I'll go check it whenever I want to.

Lots of my friends say "Ashley! You never pick up your phone!"

And my old roommate doesn't understand this side of me, since her cell phone might as well be a body part of hers.

I guess I get tired of electronic leashes.

But I digress...

Still job hunting, and I fear I will be for awhile. It's weird being in this limbo stage; an alternate universe where I'm not working or going to school. What the heck? I may get a nothing side job to just pass the time!

I know I'm lucky to be job hunting without any real stress, a.k.a. a family to feed and major bills to pay. How do people deal with that?

I'm lucky to have parents that will allow me to bum off of them for awhile.

It seems like a long way to shore, but I'll keep swimming.